Mom and dad always seem to be fighting. They never stop and it’s normally over something small and insignificant like what to watch on the television. It’s really starting to make me depressed and getting me down. It’s even starting to affect my schoolwork. Not once have they asked me how I feel about something, it’s always well I don’t want to do that or I do want do that never is it well Paul what do you want to do?
My so-called mates aren’t any use. They’ve just stopped coming to my house making the excuse that they don’t feel comfortable about being there when my parents fight. Which you can’t really blame them for, as I too would be uncomfortable in the same situation.
Ashley is taking it harder than me, she just can’t handle the arguing, but which kid her age could. She’s only 9, how could they leave her locked in her room while they argued. I sometimes think that we would be better off if we left. I don’t know where we would go but it’s got to be better than where we are now. Maybe we could go and live with Aunt Jane, ok so she isn’t all that better than our parents are now. But I’m sure she would stop drinking if she had to start looking after Ash and me.
It’s starting to get worse now they wont even talk to each other. They just both sit there and drink. They drink till the early hours if the morning. Then they don’t get up for work early enough, and end up rushing. Then they take it out on us, so far it’s only been verbally, I don’t know what I would do if either of them laid a finger on Ashley. I would just loose it; I wouldn’t be able to control myself. I love her too much for anything like that to happen to her. I’d rather die then have my baby sister beaten about like some sort of animal.
I don’t know what to do anymore, don’t know how much longer I can keep going for, I get in the morning gat Ash ready for school then I sort myself out ready for school. Come home and start the housework after all that’s done I make a start on my homework. No wonder my grades are starting to slip. If I didn’t do the housework and stuff it would never get done.
God where are you?
How could you let this happen to me, how could you let this happen to Ash she so young she doesn’t deserve it. She deserve better, like parents who love her, parent who’d rather die than something happen to her. But instead she has parents who don’t even know her name; to them she’s just
“Oi you, girl”
Parents who’d rather go to the dog track and have a drink than have to look after their precious daughter their beautiful, clever daughter.
That’s it we’re going to go, and It’s going to be soon. I told them whatever you do make sure to it that you never lift a finger on Ash or me. But as usual they didn’t listen but now it’s too late we’re going. I don’t know when exactly yet but Ash and me will work it out and we’ll find somewhere to go.
I phoned Aunt Jane today and it wasn’t good news. She said that if we came to her then she would tell my mom and dad where we were immediately. So we cant go there anymore, and fresh out of ideas. I don’t know how much longer Ashley can go on for it’s one thing when there hitting me but it’s a totally different story when they decide to knock seven bells out of her.
Dad took his belt to me today, I don’t even know what I did but I guess that’s what happens when alcohol takes over a mans life, if you can call him a man, I mean what type of man starts to hit a boy 20 years younger than him.
I did something I didn’t think I could do today, I stood up to him. There he was just about to take a swing at Ashley, because she said that she didn’t want a sip of his beer, when I grabbed his arm and no, your not going to touch her again not while I have the love for her as her parents should. Then I grabbed her and took her with me to my room she’s scared of what he’ll do next but were not going to give him the chance to do any thing because today’ the day, today were going, today at about 10 o’clock at night Ashley and me are going to sneak out. We don’t know were we are going yet but we know it’s now or never. We have to go today because Ashley told last night what mom and dad had don’t to her whilst I was at school doing an exam and it was not something I can bare to think about any longer. Just thinking about it now is making angrier than I ever thought I could get.
It’s just about time, I think I heard mom say that she was going to bed. We’ve just packed a few things into our backpacks, just the bare essentials.
We’ve done it we got away. It wasn’t easy though mom and dad weren’t asleep as I first thought instead they were very much wide-awake by the end of it. They were just sitting there watching the television, I think they heard us coming down the stairs because the next thing I know dad was running to try and catch us before we got out the front door but I opened the door threw Ashley out and stood there. I had my hands clenched into fists at my side ready for anything. Dad stopped in front of me, he said where do you two think you are going.
I turned around about to walk out when I felt his hand on my back and heard him sat you aren’t going anywhere, I slowly turned round to face him and said yes we are and you cant stop us. Just as had finished saying it he took a swing at me, but I was ready I grabbed his arm and with all the strength I could conjure I hit, I hit square in his jaw. He fell to the floor. It was then that I said you can no longer hurt us, and walked straight out the door. Ashley was standing there waiting for me she ran to me and hugged me. Finally we were free from them. But now one of our hardest battles is in front of us and that was where are we to go now.
I know haven’t written in here very long time, but I used to write in here to get out all my emotions that were getting me down, but lately I haven’t had any unhappy feelings. You see that night we went to homeless hostel, and luckily for us, there a women who was volunteering there that night who happened to work for a adoption agency and when we told her what had happened to us she said that if the courts agreed then we would be able to be adopted. About 2 weeks later the courts agreed that we should be given to adoption and luckily a couple came in and took me and Ashley with them and we haven’t looked back ever since. Dave and Julie are the nicest people I have ever met in life. So the end it all worked out for Ash and me. Some people say that you can never be truly happy till you’ve suffered and with that in mind. I feel like I’m in heaven.